20-03-2025:

Varahi:

It was good weather today, so I decided to visit Hauz Khas fort where we had a good time. Every other memory of us is roaming around in my mind, I can’t let go of those memories, as letting go of him was enough.

Well, Hello Avyukt!" Of course he was not anywhere, I just said it in my mind. The power of the inner voice. I did think about him everytime, having no clue about his whereabouts. But of all places in the world, here I’m at the fort reminiscing that day. Thinking that he might be replying, "Hello Varahi!"

We stopped talking in October during Diwali and all I have left are our pictures, our laughs, memories of his roasting sessions and that sketch.

He was by my side; we had everything a happy relationship demands. But you know it was fixed...him leaving me. I was spending my days with that special person, but still I was counting the months and later counting the days of him leaving me.

Yes, you can miss someone by staying by their side, I believe in this line, after having him whole day by my side I still missed him badly... Many times we were spending good times but I still had teary eyes as the fear of him leaving me was always with me.

It's been a while since he left, and still I can feel his eyes on me. Sometimes those holding of hands and hugs give me comfort and sometimes those kisses trigger me. What I was to him; I cried quiet a lot, those tears refuse to come out now.

To be continued...